REST IN HIM
A couple of weeks back, I wrote a post titled “Rest for the Weary” and since that time, I don’t think I’ve done a good job of taking my own advice. Don’t get me wrong, I have made some efforts, and found some moments of rest along the way, but just this week I feel an almost overwhelming sense of bone weariness. I can say for certain that this is a multifaceted issue, and not something that simply napping or reading will fix. But I think that there is merit in taking a hard look at what causes this weariness and re-evaluating priorities.
In my last post, I said that I don’t think that I need specifically to sleep more, but at this juncture, at least on some level, I think more sleep is exactly what I need. Part of my lack of sleep is self-inflicted because I find I’m most focused on writing late at night. This does not a rested person create.
I’ve also felt, for lack of a better term, harried at work. To let you a little into my daily life, we’ve had some changes in my office that has resulted in a significant extra workload on my desk. Over the years in this business, I’ve come to realize that pretty much anything can be tolerated for a time, but there does come a breaking point. Not to put too fine a point on it, but based on how this affects my outlook coupled with recent upheavals, I find myself closer to the precipice than I’ve been in a very long time.
SO HOW DO I FIND REST
So based on what I know I just wrote, and am a little fearful to put in an open forum that my boss could very well see, it may sound like I’m ready to just run away. Now, don’t get me wrong, there are moments when I may feel just that, but part of being an adult isn’t simply running when things get hard. (Plus, I’m entirely too stubborn for that.)
instead, the trick is to find moments of rest even when I may not presently have the option for a long season of rest. The key is also in what you’re resting in. If the only way to find rest is to be on a beach, then so many people would never find rest. Granted, there are different aspects of nature that different people may find restful, but ultimately I don’t think that nature in and of itself is the thing that leads to rest. It may be a conduit to rest, but ultimate rest and peace has to be found in God.
PEACE THAT PASSES UNDERSTANDING
Sometimes, I think that, although physically I may need a nap, a backrub, or a week spent on a beach with an umbrella drink in my hand, ultimately the sense of feeling weary in my soul has to stem from some other place that is striving unnecessarily. In pushing toward whatever goal I may have set before myself on any given day, I lose sight of the one who can give me rest in the midst of working for Him.
So tonight, that’s my challenge to you and to me. To refocus on the one who gives rest….and to get a good night’s sleep.
Soli Deo Gloria